TGIF

Thank God It’s Friday! This week has seemed to drag on and on. At the same time, the days all went by quickly, just the WEEK dragged! Either way, I am welcoming the weekend!

My husband is my greatest support! I love him and respect him so much. I value his opinion and he helps me so much with my diabetes management! Last night however, at 11:30 pm, I wasn’t feeling so grateful for his advice.

We rarely bump heads when it comes to my diabetes. We usually try and figure out the problem, be it lows or highs, and come up with a solution to try and fix it. After I had my diabetic coma from a low, and then 2 more almost coma’s, he has gotten much more strict about me not having lows – ever. Of course I understand where he’s coming from. It’s scary to see your loved one out of consciousness, or almost out of consciousness and knowing that if you hadn’t woken up they could have died from it.

In my 7 years as a type 1 diabetic, I have seen LOTS of lows. Ranging from 69 – 28. When I used to have a low, my husband would just go get me some juice or something to bring it up. NOW, I get a lecture for every low. Especially if I have one before bed.

So, last night I tested at 10:30 and my blood sugar was 45. Eeek. Not only was it really low, but I had taken a bolus at 9pm, so it still had a half hour to act. I suspended my pump, and reported to DH. He was not happy. He went and got me something to bring it up and we laid in bed and waited. And argued. He wanted me to to keep it higher, like around 150 instead of around 80. He’s already told me that and I have made an effort to keep it more around 120. At the same time I wanted to point out that keeping it to high wasn’t good either. I don’t want to keep it at 150 or more. At this point he was ready for me to keep it at 200! Anything to keep me from having a low, especially during the night.

200! What?!!? I couldn’t even believe he said that. Maybe I was being a little irrational since my sugar was so low, I don’t know, but I argued that point into the ground. 200 was just not ok. I told him maybe he should meet with my doctor.

Not that I should keep it low either. I know that! He kept reminding me that he was more concerned that I could die from a low in one night, and it would take several years for me to die from having 200’s.

It was now 11 and I was really irritated. How could he not care when I have a 200? I HATE when my blood sugar reads 200 or higher. We re-tested my sugar to see where the food had gotten it. No where. It read at 45. Crap. Now he was even madder. At least the last basal I’d had was now out of my system.

That was the wrong thing to bring up. I got some bread to eat to bring up my sugar, while hubby told me that I need to not eat anything past 8pm anymore so my insulin is done by 10 and we can test it and if it’s low, bring it up by 10:30 – 11 at the latest so we can get to bed on time.

Well that just didn’t seem fair to me. We often have snacks or hot cocoa at 9 or 9:30 while we’re watching tv. Now I can’t be a part of that? What he was requesting does make sense. It would be the safest way to handle my diabetes and lows, but it just didn’t sound good at the time. I want to have the freedom to eat whenever I want! Realistically I can’t do that, but wouldn’t it be nice?

At 11:30 I was tired, irriated, and just wanted to go to bed. I re-tested my sugar hoping that it was up, and the reading showed 69. Thank goodness!

My 3am test was 180. DH asked what it was and when I told him he didn’t say anything. It irritated me. I took .4 units to bring it down….but not to much.

At 7am I asked hubby what he thought of my 180 reading and he said it was fine with him. He was happy with it. It helped him sleep. If only he knew how frustrating it is for me when my reading is anything over 150.

Again, let me point out that he is a lifesaver and so helpful in helping me figure out whats going on with my blood sugar! Minus this one area….where I don’t feel like we are working together.

Anyone else have similar frustrations??

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